Do good feelings/good wishes last forever?

She gave me a book which is quite rare and according to her, it is out of print since 1982 or so. Well, it’s by her favorite author; the one she contended was her ideological icon in literature, in studies and in life in general. The book in Marathi, is about a girl who is dwelling with her father in pre-independence era of India and trying to define herself as a lady, trying to take care of house and her penchant for education. Well during those days, she is writing letters to one of her guy friends (for whom she later develops affection and love), staying in distant city. Not a big book, but certainly very impressive. She gave me the book telling me how she wanted me to have it. Certainly she must have good feelings behind giving me the book.

Well, evidently we are not together any more, and my question is does that book still have those positive emotions with it? Things always don’t work out the way everyone wishes to be. Good feelings at one moment can turn into feelings of extreme agony the next. (Well, sometimes you have to realize all you can do is to smile at the way you are being played on this stage of life by some higher power, just the way puppets dance to puppeteer’s whims!). Being a science student, I believe in resonance theories and interpersonal connection on different plateau than what humans can perceive. Well, to tell you the truth, I have/had nothing but good wishes for her. I felt the reason we’re not together is not because of her, her personality but something that could not be resolved between both of us. Does she have the same for me? Well, you would say, as a rational person, what do you care? Well, life is not binary...

I am in a dilemma.

What should I do with the book? Neither do I have guts to destroy it nor to part it away from me! Does the book deserve the place with the rightful owner or should it reside with me as it defines a point in time for me?