Carpe Diem - Make it Happen

Do you ever feel that something that you should have done and did not do? Something is left unfulfilled? You wanted to meet someone before you left your hometown, but could not gather courage? You wanted to meet someone, but circumstances prevented you? You wanted to call someone, but did not feel that inner burn to go ahead and show that you need someone more than they need you?

Well, now it's the time do it!

I am an Engineer by profession, we are given a problem, data, constraints and are asked to solve it, and by golly after being in this field for over 10 years, it is ingrained in my brain. Science teaches you rationality, to distinguish facts from fiction, to derive conclusions based on given data. There is this famous saying: "Pessimist see a half empty glass, an optimist will say that the glass is half filled," I can add an engineer will say "I just see a half filled glass of water." But sometime I feel that life is not so rational, me and my friend who was political science major always would have big agruements on this. She'd say "you see only black and white, but in our field, we have all shades of grey!" What a nice to put it, to describe the life! Yes, indeed life is not always binary...rather it should not be binary.

Coming back to my original arguement...

Back in 1999, when I was fresh grad from engineering college, I was in Pune for private tuitions. Back then, when you're young, you have all the energy and passion to do everything under the sun and nothing seems impossible! We did lot of things, especially something that I could not do when I was doing my engineering! That included climbing up Sinhgad in 45 minutes, staying up all night and roam in Pune, eating very hot stuff, mostly something that would seem inane in today's context.
One thing that I always wished was to meet my icon, larger than life figure "Pu La Deshpande," incidently his residence was just in same apartment complex where I was going for private tuitions. One fine dewy morning, peculiar to Pune, I arrived at his residence. His door was wide open, his magnanimous portrait was hanging on the front door, likely to be given my another fan like me, just to remind everyone that he is living there! Place was quite, I could feel the faint whiff of morning incence. As I was about to hit the door bell, something struck me and I decided to come back later. After that I got busy in studies and US admissions and suddenly on July 12, 2000 I read in Pune Sakal, that he passed away in Mehendale Hospital. I had motive, opportunity but could not make gold out of it. Neither could I see him on July 12 because of impending travel preps!

I decided "if you want to do it, now is the time."

I was in India during winter vacations of 2001. There was a girl in my junior college in 1993 with whom I shared a special bond. But somehow I lost touch over the course of time. My friends knew about her and her whereabouts and were insisting that I see her. I could not gather courage to do it. I probably left that strain unstrewn forever.

Often times, opportunity walk your way only once, you meet someone who create enormous impact in your life, somebody wishes you well, somebody compliments you on your looks, somebody frowns upon what you did. Now it is the time to communicate to say thank you, to return appreciation, to say sorry to heal. You have the moment, make best out of it! Thoreau said, "Most men lead lives of quiet desperation." Don't be resigned to that.

Carpe Diem